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Kevin

(Lost Love)
Okay, I've talked about this to some people many of time and they are probably getting sick of it but I think I should get it out to everyone now and then be done with it so here goes....
It's interesting how you can come about and love someone so dearly and then your heart is ripped out when you're torn from that individual. You believe none of your dreams will come true since you are apart from this person. Believe me, I feel that exact same way right now. Where do I begin?...That's it, how about the beginning...
Well it was another gloreous day in Elem. School. At least I thought it was gloreous at the time. But then something hapened so quickly to make it more perfect than it was. One 3rd grader met a newer 3rd grader and at least one of their lives changed. Possibly both... They built a friendship and became a little more. But by the next year they were together more. But after 4th grade was over they were parted. It went on this way for a few more years and I got back to what my life was like (before him.)
Then it was the middle of my 8th grade year. The lunch line was moving terribly slow so I figure, hey why not check out the scenery. I looked around and stopped at the sight of the male behind me. It was HIM. We chatted and reminiced. We had a few dances at the 7 & 8th grade dance that was thrown. But a few months after that I was gone off the High School and was taken away from him once again for some years.
My life was torn between friends, crushes, a few fights w/friends, school, family troubles, and occasions. Then one sunny day during my lunch period I noticed a lot of commotion on the stage. It was army people looking for recruits, so I didn't pay attention too long. But then a guy up there caught my eyes. He turned around and talked with someone I knew. I didn't think anything of it and went back to my friends and lunch. Then I heard someone say Hi to me. I looked and it was HIM once again. Our friendship built up more after that and we experienced a relationship. We were on and off many times during that year. He was my first kiss and I was very happy. He was the only guy I really loved and I thought he'd be the only one. But towards the end of the year after we were over with again (I didn't know until after he was gone that, that would be our last time) He was gone and a part of me went with him.
Its been almost 3 years now and I only see him when I dream about him or see his face in the pictures I took of him alone and some with me with him. So I dedication this entry to him: Kevin Lee Bauesfeld. I also dedicate a new year's resolution to him. I plan to look for him and hopefully find him before 09-06-05.

1:48 p.m. - 2004-12-30

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