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lonely

I enjoy most of my days while others are just a disaster waiting to happen. I'm not always happy. I use to be but that happiness was taken away from me 2-3 yrs ago. It was in and out of my life a few times but now it and the person have stayed away.
Its had a major effect on me. Up until he was in my life I never knew true happiness. I know my friends and others are probably sick of me talking about it but it is always on my mind. My soul-mate is gone from me and i'm afraid i'll never find him again. I don't know how to make it w/o him. I'm doing okay so far, but I'm afraid i'm on the verge of having a breakdown. Honestly I don't know how much more loneliness I can take. I don't plan on ending my life, I am just afraid i'll never know happiness again. I might feel joy but no happiness as long as me and him are apart.

11:05 a.m. - 2005-01-08

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