jascat's Diaryland Diary

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Still there

(Still there)
My mind doesn't seem to want to let go of the thoughts and memories. He is forever there and I can't seem to change it. The memories come into play when I least expect it.
I'll be clipping my nails on the couch and i'll think about what it would be like if he walked up to the glass door and knocked.
I remember the times we had together but we were always around friends. Never ever alone.
We talked of marriage and I remember the things I said and he said in response.
The thoughts and memories just continue on and on. Like a song is just repeating itself when the cd setting says to play all the songs and not just one.
He was my lover and my friend. I don't know if we will find each other again. I honestly hope so. Because my love keeps growing.
There are no other guys who are around to put him out of my mind. He is just always there invading the space. I love him so but I need to let go. I just need someone who can change that for me.
There are no guys interested in me, so I continue to be fond for Kevin. That's just the way it will be until someone sees me as they have never seen me before.

1:43 p.m. - 2005-02-22

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