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Hoping for a dream come true
(Hoping for a dream come true)
The results I want in the search find my one and only guy Kevin have left me saddened. So I've come to the conclusion to stop searching for him for the time being. Am I talking to fast/thinking to fast? I think so, LOL. A friend of mine helped me by getting 2 Kevin Bauserfeld's address for me and I have written them only to never hear from them to let me know anything that might be of help in my situation.
Its people like that who really bug me but I guess I can't blame it all on them. Its just hurts me to know that my love is out there and I have no idea if he is all right or anything of the sort.
I've even convinced myself that I love him enough and my love is strong enough to let him go. Who am I kidding? I nearly cried when I truly thought of that fact that I tried to go against my heart in this situation/issue.
If memory serves me right, Kevin should graduate this year if he is still in school. So I've decided to hold of until the graduation announcements come out in May/June to see if I can come up with anything that would be of help in the search to my love.
When that is of help or is of nothing then we will see if I have to follow through with my next plan. If my search through the announcements do not help I will wait till I am at the age of 21 to hopefully end this search.
A show I watch daily has become of help on what I could do to see his sweet face again after almost 3 years. I have to be 21 or older just to make on the show.
As long as he is of that age by the time I complete the application then I will pray that we will be reunited on live television. So that is my conclusion on the search for my one true love who I can't seem to get out of my mind no matter what I do or tell myself. I can put things away that was from him, reminds me of him, or photos that will allow me to see him and he is still somewhere in my thoughts and dreams.
So this story is to be continued and will hopefully end in a happy ending....
2:07 p.m. - 2005-03-11
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