jascat's Diaryland Diary

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Lots of stuff in my life

My life is so boring its gonna make this entry sound better. My dad came to see me on the 19th of this month. It had been exactly a month and a week since I saw him last when he came. I gave him a little talking to when he said he'd come here to Clifton to see about a job he could get and I said "yeah when you can get down here." He said "I know Jazz. I need to stop being that way and come to see you more. Its no-ones' fault but my own."
Its good he recognized he did wrong and that I was suffering from it. I called him on his birthday and he was happy I called. I'm glad he has a cell phone because the woman and kids he stays with I don't like them.
Mom's birthday was the day after. I left her card where she could find it and she thanked me when she got home. I had her a bubble bath ready and I made her dinner. It wasn't much but she still appriciated it. I was happy that I made her smile for the day. She was grinning at work because I added her name to 97.5FM's spam club and when they ask your birthday they announce it when the time comes. If its during the week anyways.
My bike is running so now I have a different way to get excercise and to spend time with my 2 nieces and nephew.
I have still be trying to keep Kevin off of my mind but he is always there somewhere. I love him still and its going on three years since I've seen him. I'm still working on a way to find him so I can see if there is still chemistry between us. If there is and we can do something about it, wonderful. If there is chemisty and we can't do anything about it I will be sad a little while but then maybe it will get better. If there is no chemistry then I can move on with my life, at least I hope.
I wrote a story about the way I picture it to be for me and him when we see each other again. I thought it would help me through the lose of the one true love I had but it seems to make my feelings build. I just need to see him or talk to him and see what can or can't happen between us. Until then I will continue to think of the what ifs and everything else in between.

2:35 p.m. - 2005-03-25

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